Pants

I've been struggling to find clothes.  It's hard finding something affordable when you have a growing daughter...and husband (his gut, lol.) Anyway, I finally ordered 3 pairs of pants for myself and I'm pretty excited about it.  They are just kinda workout type pants but they'll be comfy.  I'm gonna just go for a relaxed & lazy look.  There's no point in dressing up all cute like just to have my daughter's diaper leak on me or to sit in chocolate or have boogers wiped on me, lol.  Right now my best pair of pants has a small hole, the size of a pin head in them.  That's the only pair I really go out into public wearing.  It's gotten pretty bad.  I keep getting clothes for them two and by the time I go to shop for myself the money's gone.  I'm pretty happy to be getting some new pants though.  I'm also hoping to get some new shoes with income tax.  I want to look nice and cute but we just can't afford it and since he's got his part time job and since she's a growing kid they just come first. I wish I could rush out and buy myself clothes and just say fuck it, but I can't allow myself to do that.  People tell me I need to focus on myself but how can I when I have a family that needs things as well?  If I'm naked and can't afford clothes it's alright as long as they are taken care of.

Heh, I almost posted this as a facebook status but I'm far too afraid of people knowing how bad off we are.  I know no one reads this and it's a great place to vent.