My secret rant on a public blog

No one reads  this.

No one at all.

I randomly post on here thinking that maybe...somewhere...someone is reading what I typed...but they aren't.  No one is reading this and no one really cares what's new in my life.

I'm bipolar and right now I'm down....

I moved all the way across the country with my husband and raised my daughter for her first two years.  I had only one friend.  She was a cunt.  I don't know why I allow myself to befriend such poisonous people.  It seems as though no one wants friendship anymore just for the sake of friendship.  She was after free stuff and money.  She trashed my home and ruined a lot of my daughter's possessions.  The worst part of it all? She has already bred.  She's got two asshole sons who are worse than she is.  They destroy everything they come into contact with and are just a disease among humanity.  Why are they like this? They are like this because they are the spawn of a spoiled, selfish, greedy, arrogant, backstabbing whore.

Ok, enough of that mini rant...

I'm here right now because the only real friend I have is the internet.  I may as well just be typing in a note pad document and save it to my desktop...I'd get the same amount of views either way....

The internet is my only friend.  I don't have a best friend.  I don't even have a regular friend.  No one wants to spend time with me because the only people I know are too busy to come see me or make time for me.  I had several people act excited that I was returning home.  I thought that I would have real friends.  I thought that at least one person would want to spend time with me.

I was wrong.

I want someone to talk to...laugh with...watch TV, play games...go to the movies...craft with!  I want someone to enjoy my company and I theirs.  I want to feel like more people in the world care about me.  Sure, I have a husband and a daughter...but is that all their is?  Am I to have no real friends?

It seems as though the only friends I attract are those greedy bastards who hope they can get something out of me.  Now that I've moved back and we are still trying to get on our feet no on wants to make time for me.  I guarantee you though...once we get a steady income my "friends" will be lining up for miles.

Anyway, dear friend the internet, you seem to always be here for me.  I only wish I could say that about a person.

Why, Hello!

     It appears to be time to post another update.  I think I shall stick with my theme of lists.


What's New With Me:
-Our daughter is now 2 years old.  We had her birthday party in Virginia.
-While on vacation in Va I got so home sick that we house hunted while we were there...and found one!  We'll be moving in the beginning of August.
-I lost my best friend.  She was a bitch who destroyed my house while I was gone and I hope she gets hit by a very large train and is then in a coma.  I hope that while in that coma she is in immense amounts of pain but the doctor's don't know and don't treat her for it and she spends several months to several years in agonizing coma pain.  I hope she wakes only to find her family has abandoned her and then on her way out of the hospital she gets hit by a truck.  Lather, rinse, repeat.
- I got new glasses!
-Felix has some issues we are working on getting diagnosed :/


New Things I've Recently Discovered That I LOVE:
-Doctor Who!!
-Soda Stream, it makes better soda that the name brands!
-My Little Pony, it's not just for kids...this show is awesome!
-Trader Joes....affordable AND tasty!

Things I Should Like Because of My Gender but DON'T: 
-Shoes
-Clothes Shopping
-Makeup
-Weird Hair Dos
-Dresses/Skirts
-Handbags
-Sex and the City
-Soap Operas
-Duck Face
-Slutty Dancing
-Romance Novels
-Throwing up
-Muscular Guys

Things I Shouldn't Like Because of My Gender but DO:
-Anime
-Marvel
-The Big Bang Theory
-Sex.  Lots of it.  I have Sex on the brain more than most men, lol.
-Books
-Zombies
-Vampires--- no, REAL vampires.  Get that's sparkly ass out of my face.
....pretty much anything geeky.  I also enjoy camping.  I do not fear breaking nails.

Things I Never Thought I'd Do... but Do:
-Become so crafty.  Love me some pinterest.
-Clean spit up out of my bra while trying to order a meal on mother's day.
-Sit down and actually ENJOY children's shows like Yo Gabba Gabba....
-Drive a car while simultaneously trying to soothe a screaming baby and listen to GPS directions.
-Lie to my doctor's receptionist because I'm too embarrassed to say I can't make my appointment because I'm too tired or was so busy I forgot to wash clothes and would be naked if I did show up....
-Put a binky that fell on the ground into my mouth to "clean" it so I can give it back to my kid.  Don't you judge me!
-Wear "normal" clothes.  I have to say I really miss my goth days.
-Sneak food and eat it.  Have you ever tried to eat a cookie in front of a toddler?  Yea.  Lol
-Go Green.  I cloth diaper, recycle, use green cleaning products, don't buy Styrofoam.... I never thought I'd be this person.

That's it for my random lists for now.  :)